Setsu No Rensa

Seeking the swan dive

I have contrived no fear of knives,

Only a gripping phobia of being alive.

Tonight I learn to hate my hostess

and become a chain of roses




Setsu No Rensa.

The Living Poem

This will continue to grow as long as I live.


-2.sep

Fly as high as your broken wind will take you. If all you want is height, you're there. Without your silver feather, you'll fall, beware.

-3.sep

my fate says the hate stays, kills my mind while the day fades. if i have to stay awake, i'll live in sound. turn the music up and life down

-3.sep
so you search your heart, and find friction. out of that you carve a new place to live in, now find out if it's something you can live with

-4.sep

What if I was wrong, what if I could penetrate the risky sky; we'll never know, because i never learned to fly

-4.sep

and saturn's got eyes, sure; they're sitting alone in the storms you made

-5.sep

maybe life looks great, but i can't see it. maybe if prunes could be grapes, i'd feel it. maybe if you would stay awake, i'd heal it.

-5.sep

if you'd like to listen, explain away; if you're here to ripen, put your seeds away; if you're here to talk, i'm here to stay.

-5.sep

if you could find my soul, i'd like it back; it's a heart you stole, and a heart i lack; i'm the boy you broke with your last attack

-6.sep

i drove through ghosts and snakes to get here, only to find a new road and old fear

-6.sep

you cling to the things you that never wanted, i sent you my soul but you never responded

-11.sep

weep / sleep. guilt comes in waves and leaves in ways that make you pray that it would stay. your actions define you and guilt reminds you.

-14.sep

Do my eyes deceive me, or is the sky beneath me? Is this how you treat me, or do you want to beat me?

-15.sep

you try to soothe the pain by putting poison in it's veins. you'll seek it out, hold it down and watch it die. all for your precious lie.

-16.sep

choke down the truth, if you can stand the taste. swallow it down, with haste. you'll see how hard it is to swallow empty space.

-21.sep

We lived our lives like sand and snow. I flowed through hands, and so you glowed. I'll carry on and make it known, a heart for you was never slow.

-22.sep

Before, you were the warmth in my arms, I was the moon in your stars. Now we’re stuck, an end with no start and a brain with no heart.

-1.oct

the whore that's yours, in the allegory. you didn't write it, but it tells the story. i wouldn't read it and mean it, not till the mourning.

-8.oct

No blessings for the broken, no morning for when I've woken. No sun for the shining, no time for the dying.

(bullet) Youve got got your vicegrip, your sugar and your tight lip; if he doesnt like it then he's going to bite it, knowing youve tried it

Bemoaning the firetip, owning up to the fired click, you've gone ahead with it, carrying on in spite of this. Sometimes I wish you missed.

-6.nov

You're not looking both ways because you're not on either side. I might be lost in space, but at least I'm not stuck in your divide.

-8.nov

Sweeter pianos, bells, and strums, louder than any voice ever tried to be. If only I could speak to you like you speak to me.

Powerlines

Can hearts beat without blood,

is a powerline so shocking?

Please don't act so surprised

seeing that i've been kind,

despite the hard times

you are nothing but an artifact

of a failed friendship,

you saw what you wanted,

but you wouldn't act, you sat back

and let your heart launch it's attack

your heart is a fossil, and your guilt is colossal

the pain is immense, and your new lover is tense

she doesn't know how to hold you,

she'll scold you, mold you, and say she told you

Can hearts beat without blood,

is a powerline so shocking?

Do you know what it's like to hit the ground,

when your home is in the sky?

When your wings are still broken,

you're shattered, still can't fly?

With your smoking gun,

you told her she was the one.

Convinced her you were fun,

convinced her you were numb?

Can a heart beat without blood,

could you handle the red flood?

Is a powerline so shocking,

When it's connecting you and me,

when it's destroying what you love?

Temper Trap - Rest

Ooh baby Ooh baby
Bereaved lady
Ooh baby

Ooh baby Ooh baby
He carved you like a stone
Then left your side
Stop Stop

Ooh baby
Slow steady
Heaven's waiting
For you baby

Ooh baby Ooh baby
He took your soul
And left you out to dry
Stop

Now, you're home free at last
And the cracking whip
That howled
And scarred your back
Has stopped
Ooh It stopped

Ooh baby Ooh baby
Love baby
Your, your only crime
Ooh baby
Stop Stop

Ooh baby Ooh baby
Love baby
Your, your only crime
Ooh baby
Stop Stop

Red Box of Blues

I’ll give to you my little red box of blues,

So you can see too what I’ve been holding for you,

So you have something to hold on to and remember it’s true

Please wear those beads, they mean much to me.

There doesn’t seem to be a right way to do things,

or a right way to see.

"But penguin please, don’t break my wings"

I know I’m not the best of men, I can’t love like a woman does

But I know how to love like I do.

I really wish life wasn't so complicated with so many bends and sudden ends,

it makes me hate it as i watch it fade in and get so jaded.

beats over bars

Slender and shattering like the fresh washed, filthy glass of blood-red wine,

She consumes like air from the cup like the soul from my body,

So vehemently intrigued by her form and grace, inherently good in image yet

Satanic in intention

Running on like the longest sentence, putting a man away in her blood-soaked silver jail,

Sweet smells drifting in through the bars of the outward looking window,

Feeling backwards and distraught by the locking doors and the ring they tie around my innocent finger,

Who could not see outside of the tunnel, or know worth beyond why worth is defined

Before I Kick The Bucket

My list of cool shit I want to do in my life (because calling it a bucket list is too pessimistic for nofal)

1. Hold the moon in my hands

2. Throw a surprise party

3. Write and finish a 300+ page book

4. Gain and lose 30 pounds over 6 months

5. Shake hands with a war veteran

6. Train a dog to play dead

7. Run a marathon

8. Catch, prepare and eat my own fish

From fountain to funnel

All your eyes see are tunnels

I show one hundred different pathways

But to you it’s just hearsay

Did you ever point your eyes my way?

I only had you on my day.

Today is not the first time I’ve felt it,

It’s been a month in and I’ve spelt it,

Lived it and held it.

Till the day I get to hear you, see you and feel you

I’ll try not to need you, hold you back or precede you

I wear this veil of silence and I’m trying my best to try this,

Trying to place myself beside it, yet I find myself inside it

Four more days to the rapture, into your chest so that I might capture

A glimpse of what I might hold, a vision of what it feels to be bold

I feel I’m on the threshold of something that I’ve been told

A better way to live on, tired of having to step down

From fountain to funnel

Something about static

It's there, I'm here, you're there, we're where it is.

Gyrate, circulate, extrapolate and almost in an instant, find direction.

Could it be that you were going in circles but moving forward?

You were moving, moving, moving. Emphatically. Eyes shut.

Your head bobbed with the rhythm of the track. It felt so right.

We stepped forward, onward. Walked right past it.

Felt it coursing through our veins, reaching out from our skin.

It hurts to touch you, static.

Buzzing, beaming, interrupting. It hurts to love you, static.

But you're life. Living, motile. Existent. Not all there, but wherever you need to be.

Uncertain, destructive, painful steps. Each footprint will last a lifetime. I will know where you went and you will know where you burned.

In my mind, in the sky, in my heart, riding the wind.

I can hear your voice, vain and clamoring. But I cannot make out what you speak. It is not a language I know; not one I could ever learn.

Erratic on occasion, spontaneous, jolting forth and making your will fact.

As you gently fall from the sky, like a rigid feather, so too follows your voice, your meaning.

I saw you that day, among the daisies, lilies, lilacs, violets. Your dichromatic eyes were mesmerizing, your voice enamored in cause and timidity. Your cheeks were red, and you skipped away with a smile, bouncing from exploding star to exploding star. Your supernova trail left me heartbroken, awestruck, confused. In your flowing hair, the universe trailed behind. Planets, stars, specs, glitter and glamor splashed upon the darkness surrounding you.

The full moon set that night and never rose again.

This is why I should sleep sooner

[01:54] Au Au Tuki Tuki: Splitting the game into three episodes, protagonist is on a mission to save the world from powermad pseudogod she's in love with

[01:54] Nila Flux: the violinist is buzzing back and forth like a bee

[01:54] Nila Flux: goddamn

[01:55] Nila Flux: reprise

[01:55] Nila Flux: god damn

[01:55] Nila Flux: 3 discs

[01:55] Nila Flux: all bluray

[01:55] Nila Flux: for xbox

[01:55] Nila Flux: unplayable by everyone

[01:55] Nila Flux: worldwide chaos and confusion

[01:55] Nila Flux: nobody can understand why we made such a stupid decision

[01:55] Au Au Tuki Tuki: it ain't 3 games or 3 discs

[01:55] Nila Flux: japanese 12 year old finds way to encode game for xbox

[01:55] Nila Flux: rather

[01:55] Nila Flux: for ps3

[01:56] Nila Flux: outrage happens

[01:56] Nila Flux: mobs raid his house

[01:56] Nila Flux: kill his panda

[01:56] Nila Flux: HIS PANDA

[01:56] Au Au Tuki Tuki: japanese 12 year old has panda

[01:56] Au Au Tuki Tuki: THIS AIN'T A GAME

[01:56] Au Au Tuki Tuki: THERE ARE PANDAS

[01:56] Nila Flux: properly encoded copy of the game is shipped to the president of the united states

[01:56] Nila Flux: who subsequently murders his children in their sleep

[01:56] Au Au Tuki Tuki: what are you still doing up

[01:57] Nila Flux: this album

[01:57] Au Au Tuki Tuki: you are obviously being affected

[01:57] Nila Flux: upon completion of the game

[01:57] Nila Flux: the meaning of his life is realized

[01:57] Nila Flux: and he begins to plant bamboo indoors inside the whitehouse

[01:58] Au Au Tuki Tuki: http://images.4chan.org/co/src/1272963141490.png

[01:58] Au Au Tuki Tuki: quiet you

[01:58] Nila Flux: glenn beck capitalizes on the 'greenhouse' change and uses it as a way to symbolize the liberal far-left media in a nazi context

[01:59] Nila Flux: a fan in the audience has had enough

[01:59] Nila Flux: puts a hole in his head

[01:59] Nila Flux: people the world-round are cheering and the average IQ of the world has risen significantly

[01:59] Nila Flux: we become a self-sustaining population that eventually shuns the thought of a lifestyle based around -isms

[01:59] Au Au Tuki Tuki: ID guys wanting me to register voting

[02:00] Au Au Tuki Tuki: but i'd just wait until i go to snorkridge

[02:00] Nila Flux: the game becomes a prized token in history as a symbol of the courage

[02:00] Au Au Tuki Tuki: anyway

[02:00] Nila Flux: the courage of 3 young men

[02:00] Nila Flux: doing one thing

[02:00] Nila Flux: one thing that makes no sense whatsoever

[02:01] Nila Flux: we get monuments to our names

[02:01] Au Au Tuki Tuki: you are thinking too big

[02:01] Nila Flux: north korea dies

[02:01] Nila Flux: all of it

[02:01] Nila Flux: all of north korea dies

[02:01] Au Au Tuki Tuki: we will get one unmarked monument

[02:01] Au Au Tuki Tuki: a single monolith

[02:01] Au Au Tuki Tuki: in the middle of the great plains

[02:02] Nila Flux: etched into the monolith are unnecessarily detailed descriptions of our sex lives

[02:02] Au Au Tuki Tuki: unmarkedmonument

[02:02] Nila Flux: it is only visible to the eyes of people that perceive the fourth dimension

[02:02] Au Au Tuki Tuki: fourth dimension

[02:02] Nila Flux: and live in another plane of existence

[02:03] Au Au Tuki Tuki: must

[02:03] Au Au Tuki Tuki: sleep

[02:03] Nila Flux: Tea Party officials commit mass suicide

[02:03] Au Au Tuki Tuki: before fail life

[02:03] Nila Flux: a large, erect penis unearths itself

[02:03] Nila Flux: from the ground

[02:03] Nila Flux: the earth has grown an erection

[02:03] Nila Flux: the penis is you

[02:03] Nila Flux: alright

[02:03] Nila Flux: whatever i just said

[02:03] Nila Flux: something there

[02:03] Nila Flux: was magical

[02:03] Nila Flux: i know it

[02:04] Nila Flux: that felt so symbolic

[02:04] Nila Flux: The penis is you